&& sometimes darkness loves the light

today I met up with Rev Christina from a local church in Troy. We were connected through my family friend Grace who has been encouraging me to seek out a spiritual community. While I have tried several churches since I moved to NY ( and before moving), I hadn’t really connected with any but I have definitely felt the lack of such a presence in my life. So it was great to meet up with R. Christina. She was really nice and not at all pushy or condescending, plus I felt like we had a lot to talk about. Before taking up pastoral duties, Christina was a reporter who lived in Bakersfield, California. Christina bought me lunch and coffee at my favorite diner in Troy ( the one with all the cute guys 🙂 ) and I was very grateful. It was like a date with Christ! (The best date I’ve been on this year for sure).

the next chapter of my life i’m pretty sure involves this church, at least while i’m living in the area. The Rev has a very small church that works mostly with youth ( young black youth) and I like this because I feel that there is a lot of positive things about working with children. I cherish my experience growing up and I know that being raised a Christian has made a huge difference in my life. I feel that it’s been what has kept me from going too far left or too far right.

taking a step back from dojjj indefinitely i guess. and im thinking about picking up another full time job. if i don’t work myself to death in the next few months, i’ll deff have money to do whatever i want by christmas.

also i was feeling disappointed a few days a go that my summer seemed like it was shaping up to be a snooze fest,

but i’ve decided that i’m going to the 3 day phish show and glen watkins. i signed up to work it 😀 so hopefully it’ll pay for itself. i’m trying to get my roch friends to work it with me

also a friend is running for office locally and i offered to use my skilllzzz to help him. i’m super excited. 🙂


sitting at my favorite cafe in Troy writing, drinking coffee and eating a bacon egg and cheese sandwich on a GMO all natural bagel…

when ‘I am the Walrus’ comes on the radio.

I’m at my favorite cafe in the Capital Region and I’m really loving my life.

“Every misfortune will be a blessing”

That was a prediction from one of the cards I pulled in my last reading and I have to say its on point. When I’m looking over the past year it was difficult and challenging but nothing was truly lost only gained. Self respect, independence, gratitude…these are just some of the blessings that have been bestowed upon me.

I’ve seen the future and it is bright ❤

holes in my hose…

&& coffee all over the bathroom floor.


Incentive, as described by google:


  1. A thing that motivates or encourages one to do something:  “incentive to conserve”.
  2. A payment or concession to stimulate greater output or investment:  “tax incentives for investing”.

I find it interesting nowadays the incentives coporations give their employees, particularly in the temporary and temp to hire world. Yes, it is its own world. And if you ever worked as a contract employee, it’s almost even a stigma. It’s kind of like a race that you and maybe 15-20 other people are running and at the end of this contest is a prize, a full time “permenant” job. And during this race the fans shout insults at you, the race holders beat you with sticks and micromanage the use of your time. By the time you even get to the finish line you begin to wonder if you should of ever even competited at all.

still, its a job right? which is im sure the thing most of us tell ourselves to sleep at night. since when did coporations in america become such an “us” and them thing?

anyways, rant over. 5 min peace session coming soon. stay tuneee.