Back to basics

when ever times get rough it is most encouraging for me to take a step back and look at the big picture. I start to feel like a failure sometimes. I won’t say that i’ve made all the best choices, and I can’t say that my circumstances aren’t completely a result of my own actions but what I WILL say is that at every step of the way I made the best decision based on the information I had at the time (and what was in my heart)… you really can’t ask more of person than that. After taking my blog off the radar for a couple of days I decided to bring it back. I don’t know whats next. I don’t know if I’ll be a contender for the Miss NY pageant, I don’t know if I’ll ever be a successful model, I don’t know anything will ever pan out with that guy, Caoimhghín, and I most certainly do not know what tomorrow brings. What I DO know is what I wanted to accomplish this year:

Goals for 2015…
1. Get fit- lose excess weight and get down to true size
-improve diet and nutrition
2. Find a job I love
3. Grow my freelance writing business
3a. Finish a story (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
4. Face Fears
4a. OWN the spotlight
5. Be a better daughter
6. Master hula hooping
7. Become a professional MMA fighter
8. Be a light that shines in the darkness
9. “[To not go gently into that good night, but to RAGE RAGE RAGE]”

We can just check of number 9 right now. LOL

I am well on my way to meeting all my goals this year and that’s a great feeling. Thinking back on the last 5 years, my only real regret is not managing my money properly so moving forward that is going to be my number one priority.

And last, but greatest I am finally ready to let love in ❤
The biggest challenge that I face is really trusting God through all the dips and turns and loop-de-loops my life has taken, so many situations have tried to test my faith and yet I have remained steadfast…and I’ve coined a new saying:

“Keep your heels reasonable, your head high, your lipstick bright, and your faith on FIRE”

“RAGE RAGE RAGE against the dying of the light”